Agony
Oleh: Jasmine Aliyun
Five years have already gone by. Ella—the policewoman who lived alone. All alone with the silver ring he gave to her, she draped it on her neck as if to make it a medal for the victory of a grief. Occasionally Ella went to New York just to see her lover’s resting place. A marble gravestone with a unique cursive on it. She cleaned the tomb and replaced the dried flower with the new one. One would just have travel to United States for days to be able to see the blue dyed in the sky of Sunday morning.
“Yes, I’m here, again. I would like to report that your company is doing fine in his hand. You don’t have to worry about a single thing, even for me.”
Seasons change and Ella still remember how he loved her like December. Without any preamble and as if it were the result of silently thought out problem, she asked to herself. “Roses, marigolds, carnations... flowers are weak, they’re naïve. They reassure themselves as best they can, but do they believe that their thorns are terrible?” She chuckled.
The lady was not excessively modest. She was too young to experience the radiance of affection from a man. “I should’ve loved you, I was too early to understand how to love you. I still can’t let you go. Selfish, I know that.” Ella felt like crying. All of these familiar feeling wrapped her once again. She tore up, she believed that she would never return to him. How foolish of her, loving him after his death. She continue living as a proof that she was the one who remembered all of the cruise incident. She had to exert considerable mental effort to work the problem out for herself.
To her, Sam was a young man like hundred thousand other young men. Yet, she already gave up to establish romantic ties with another guy. Nevertheless, Ella never planned that one day, she'd be losing him. Wishing all the money she had could turn back time is just a never-ending remorse.
“I had enjoyable time with you, it’s like a misery tale which irritated me so much it simply touched my heart, and I hope we’ll meet again in another life.”